Trying to Find my Place in this World

I'm beginning to think that I should have gotten a more useful degree. I love music and that is why I chose the degree that I did but finding a job in my field is difficult. I've been looking on a gazillion websites in the last few days and have yet to find anything that suits me. My frustration is mounting daily.

I've been thinking about the different places that I want to live and one place in general has struck my interest. My sister, April, suggested that I visit a website called findyourspot.com. The website asks you a bunch of questions about your living standards and then produces a list of possible places that would suit your needs. The top of my list was Worcester, Massachusetts. I've been researching the city and the more research I do, the more I like what I see. I've even found an apartment complex that has very reasonably priced apartments. I've looked at one of the apartments online and it looks adorable. It has big bay windows, a fireplace and all hardwood floors. It's in a great location too. There's a place close by that hosts an open mic night every monday and the apartments are really close to the artist district. I think that would fit my needs rather well. My only obstacle right now is finding a decent job and planning a visit to the city. I feel a little silly because I'm so excited about what I've found and I've never even visited Worcester before. We'll see what happens. I hope I'm being lead in the right direction. I guess that's why I just have to have faith that everything will work out the way that it's supposed to.

I know that I'm going to miss Kansas once I leave but every day I am more ready to move. I find myself getting frustrated that I'm stuck behind a cash register every day and not out doing what I want to be doing. Business at the store has been pretty terrible recently and I fear that we may be on the verge of going under. I've also had a few issues with my paychecks and I'm beginning to think that I need to start looking for a different job. It's a little upsetting because I've just started to get used to everything in the store and I really enjoy how flexible my hours are. I've decided that I'm going to wait until next Friday (my next pay day) to decide what to do. I hate being a responsible adult sometimes.

Other than the job, my life has been relatively slow. My roommate and I are still getting along fabulously and I really enjoy having my weekly lesson with Dr. Perniciaro. I miss my music friends and sometimes I find myself missing class. I guess I'm having a hard time letting go of my college experience and everything that came with it. It's time to move on though. There is no use dwelling on the past. Growing up is kind of a pain sometimes.

I will leave you now and continue to browse the internet for jobs that I can't have. Have a fantastic Friday!

East Coast Swing

My goal was to keep this site updated as much as possible but I fear that I am failing miserably. It seems that life has gotten the best of me and I haven't had much time to devote to blogging. I am currently at work and the mall is like a ghost town so I decided to hop on the internet and search for future jobs and places to live. I've been looking into moving to the east coast, possibly somewhere near the DC area. No plans have been made and I'm still in a lease until April but it puts my mind at ease to plan for the future. I have a few friends who live on the east coast and they enjoy life in that area. We'll see what the future has in store for me.

The play went very well. The snake cooperated with me until the last night when she thought it would be a great idea to lunge at my neck while I was backstage. I don't think that her intention was to bite me but, needless to say, I was more than willing to give her back when the time came. I enjoyed being a part of such an amazing cast and I loved watching each member light up the stage. This experience is one that will stay with me my entire life. I can't wait to be involved in another show.

Other than working on the arts council production, my life has been consumed with work. I spend the majority of my time behind this cash register and I often wonder if there is more to life than this. I realize that there is but the 10 hr shifts make me feel otherwise. Overall, I do enjoy my job. I get paid too much to do the work that I do but we won't discuss this issue with my boss. I've been attempting to save a little money so I will be able to move when the time comes.

I am still taking lessons with my vocal professor and he manages to inspire me every week. Dr. Perniciaro really believes in me and I am blessed to have found such a dedicated teacher. We work well together and have our fair share of laughter as well. I believe that he will be a great help when I decide to leave Kansas.

I guess I should end this blog for now. I don't have much else to write and the mall is only open for another hour. I have to do my nightly cleaning and straightening. I love you all!